Today I relapsed.
Steve Harvey once said “If you put positivity into life, then that’s what you will get out of it. If you put negativity into life, then that’s what you will get out of it.”
Today I thought negative thoughts. This positive streak that I have been on ended today. I texted two friends today and both texts were negative things.
One of them said “I have nothing saved up at all. It’s so depressing. I don’t even know how to explain it. It’s like I’ve been living on my own for a year now and living paycheck to paycheck. I’m just tired of the same cycle. That’s why I’m doing a lot of the things that I am doing now because I can’t keep doing the same thing over and over again and then neglecting my own happiness as well being a slave for the white man”
The other text said “I already do dislike myself being overweight. I’m just scared that it will be the same thing once I get smaller.”
I sat and started reflecting over both conversations that I had and realized that I had a relapsed. I haven’t worried about my financial problems in some time now. I used to let it consume me. Today I let it consume me. Also, Since I have been losing weight and aiming for a breast reduction for health reasons, I haven’t had a negative mindset about my image either. I was beginning to learn to love myself. Today I relapsed.
That initial reflecting has helped me gain composure and snap me back into reality. I am going to continue to be positive and strive for happiness, which is my ultimate goal in life.