Thank U, Next

Dear 2018,

I remember thinking December 31, 2017 that 2018 was going to be a better year for me. I said to myself “Daijaha, you will finally have your good year. You don’t know what’s going to happen, but something good will happen.” Then 2018 came and immediately I needed a do over. It started out rough. From then on, it got even worse. It seems like each month was worse than the last.

This year has thrown curveballs at me that I wasn’t expecting to happen. You made me get out of my comfort zone by dealing with a lot of things that I never wanted to deal with before and I just ignored it. I saw the true colors of a lot of people that I no longer deal with and will stay in 2018. You have brought people in my life that I didn’t know were going to come into my life. Some of them came into my life and made me laugh, while some of them will remain a memory. This year has broken my heart in so many ways because of the constant struggle and turmoil that keeps coming my way and won’t stop bothering me. The financial jam that I’m currently in has been the reason the many tears are on my pillow and the many anxiety attacks I’ve had. I didn’t want to shed tears, but I did. You made me confused a lot of the times and second guessing myself a lot and it almost made me forget the kind of person I really am. I didn’t feel like the smart person everyone claims that I am at all this year. It was like dumb decision after dumb decision.

Today is December 31, 2018 and today I am thinking tomorrow will be a new year. I don’t have a new year resolution. I’m not going into this new year with the same mindset as last year. It’s just tomorrow. I say this because I have a goal today and the same goals I have today, will be my same goals tomorrow. This year has started out rough and ended rougher, but tomorrow is a new day and new year. 2018, Thank you, NEXT!

Yours Truly


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